Yesterday morning, my grandmother could not get out of her bed.  I did not realize how sick she was and has been.  She said to me this morning, "I tried to raise you to have good morals.  You need to be a good girl.  Do this for me, but I know you make, and will continue to make, all the good choices in your life."

As if that guilt trip was not enough.  I drove into school.  I don't live in my dorm room anymore because I have to take care of my little sister.  I walked into the classroom.  My VILE cell phone fell out of my Coach purse.  The professor picked the cell phone up and examined it.  He said to me "I hope you actually aren't part of VILE, dear.  You know the rules.  You are studying to be a lawyer, not a criminal.  You are supposed to be defending famous criminals... because you are studying to be an entertainment lawyer....  not be one yourself."

After class let out, I drove myself to the nearest beach.  I took my Prada shoes off and stuck them in my over - sized Coach bag.  I walked in the water that crashed up on the shore.  While walking, I asked myself some questions.  I know I should be home taking care of my grandma and little sister, but I need to think about all of this.  Is being part of VILE a bad thing?  Does it not fit in with the life that I want?  I know that I want to be a lawyer.  That has been one of my many dreams since I was little.  But the professor does make a good point.  You cannot be a criminal and a lawyer.  Well, alright, that can be debated, but I am not in the mood for that now.  Would joining ACME be the best thing right now?  The rush of cold water felt good on my hot feet.  Should I not be a part of ACME or VILE?

After walking the beach for about an hour, I realized I needed to head home and prepare dinner.  I did not answer any of these questions.  I could not, in fact.  I am hoping that the answers will some how magically come to me.  I am hoping that I can figure out what is best for me and my little sister, who, after my grandmother passes away, will be in my care.